Thursday, September 17, 2009

Only God knows...

Work has been a bit stressful lately... maybe I already mentioned that, but patients with cancer have so much to deal with and you can't help but feel as if you have to deal with those issues along with them as their nurse. Cancer pain is crazy, the side effects so frustrating and debilitating in their crisis times, and the mental stability is a puzzle to maintain. Cancer is just evil. A person learns that they have a killer disease, have a set amount of time to live and Oh, P.S. it's going to be a pretty horrible death. But Good Luck! YUCK. is what I have to say.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Supernaturally Refreshed

This morning I woke up @ 0536 after having gone to bed @ midnight last night. I have neurotic hours of sleep since working nights; so I turned on the movie "A River Runs Through It" b/c my dear friend Sheila said it was one of her favorites. AND what girl doesn't love to look at Brad Pitt for a couple of hours?

@ 930 I went to a women's prayer group @ Horizon Christian Fellowship that I have been to one other time. I'm getting desperate for some meaningful Christian relationships and saw this as a great opportunity. Dottie, an older woman with beautiful white hair, stunning blue eyes and a smile that makes the loneliest heart feel welcome, stopped me at the end of the prayer as I was walking out the door and said something like, "I'm so glad you came back, you know I am a retired nurse and I know how hard nursing is and today it's even harder! I worked Oncology for 5 years and didn't realize how burnt out I was until I switched jobs!" At this, my eyes filled with tears and I couldn't say much other than nodd my head over and over b/c this week I realized I might be well on my way to getting burnt out... after a grand total of 6 months working! She promptly gave me her number and told me to call her anytime I felt I needed prayer:)

So then I went home, skipped my run, made plans to have a Borders "date" with my friend Hilary later that afternoon and fell asleep. I woke up about 3 hours later with more energy than I have had in a long time and wondered did I drink an espresso in my sleep or something!?!?! I felt totally refreshed and ready to go and the only thing I can think of is that someone prayed for me and I just have a sneaking feeling it was my new friend Dottie.