Psalm 139 is a Birthday Tradition for me... It's like looking through a keyhole into something beautiful and treasured...something you can't fully understand... that fills your mind with sweet dreams and absolute security. Best Birthday present ever... is a relationship with an Almighty, Gracious Father.
The Lord is so good to me. He has blessed me so tremendously.
He searches me and he knows me--->He is active in his relationship with me... I am known.
He knows when I sit and rise---> He's into the details
He perceives my thoughts from afar--->He knows what is coming long before I do. He sees the heart of where my thoughts come from.
He discerns my going out and my lying down. He's familiar with all my ways--->like with my new niece Lane... I know she'll open her mouth expecting food when I kiss her lips or she will let out a wail after a few cries and be comforted immediately by her pacifier... He knows my tendencies, my habits, my expectations.
He knows the word on my tongue before it gets there--->He knows my thoughts... my heart...what my words really mean even if they don't come out right or they aren't perceived correctly
He hems me in and his hand is upon me---> He cares about me...He doesn't allow me to fall apart. He knows all of the pieces of me. There is no where/nothing I can go or do that he doesn't know or won't see.
He created the whole universe...I cannot flee from his spirit or presence. Even in the heavens, the depths of the sea, the early morning or in a far off country---> even there... his hand will guide me... his right hand will hold me fast.
Darkness cannot hide me... there is no darkness in Christ. Only light.
He created my inner being---> my personality, my brain... he KNIT me together in my mothers womb---> knitting is a tedious, intricate, deliberate process/action. Each knot is planned and knit with thought and detail.
I am made so wonderfully that it fills me with holy fear of this God who creates so intricately and intimately.
All I know is that his works are wonderful. Though I was made in a secret place to all humans where they have a limited understanding of what occurs... nothing was hidden from Him.
I was woven in the depths of the earth... woven---similar to being knit... and the depths of the earth?? Before time- his eyes saw my unformed body. Before time... before there were birds, sin, hues of color...
All my days were ordained for me and written in his book before they even occurred---> He's not making this up one day at a time. My days are numbered, planned and known.
God's thoughts about me are precious. They are vast. If I tried to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand. Then I would fall asleep out of sheer exhaustion and still God would be with me. Safe in the shelter of His wing. Completely known, understood and loved without measure.
There are wicked people who do not consider my God. Their ways are offensive... especially in light of your perfect knowledge of who I am as well as who they are.
Oh Father, search me and know me... test me and know my anxiety... see that there is no offensive way in me and lead me in the way everlasting.